Dealing With It
This started a long time ago but lately it’s just escalated to the point where I’m not sure if I can deal with it by myself anymore. It’s hard to characterize well. An overall feeling of absolute ambivalence. It all feels intensely pointless. There is a raging battle in my mind between the absolutely pointlessness of it all and the absolute perfection of it all. I can’t decide whether it’s worth it or not and sometimes I just don’t feel equipped to cope. Some days are worse than others. Some days I’m absolutely elated about everything. Others, not so much. I’m working on it.
